Yearning For Her Arrival

The love of my life is arriving in a little over two weeks. I yearn so much for that day to arrive. It has been the only thing on my mind for weeks and I cannot wait to have her in my arms. I have been wanting this for over a year now and it is finally here. On August 20th my greatest joy will be starting a life with the woman of my dreams. Finally I have found the person that warms my heart and brings passion and a love of life into my heart. She is the most wonderful person I have ever met and I am the luckiest man alive. If I give her only a fraction of the joy she has given me she should be one of the happiest people that I know. It is my life's goal not only to make her happy but to give her more joy than she has ever given me. If I succeed in my goal the happiness she will have will be legendary. I only hope that I am up for this challenge believe me this will be no small feat but it is one that I take on willingly and with all of my heart. I can think of no person more deserving of a life of pure bliss than her.

The Joys and Saddness of Love

It finally happened. Our interview date at the consulate has been set. It is happening on the 26th of June. This news has sent my life into a whirlwind of emotion. I so dearly love Tamuna that it was one of the most joyful occasions in my life and at the same time it has a bitter edge to it. My love is sacrificing so much for our love that I cannot help feeling sympathy for her and her family. I absolutely love and adore her family and they have welcomed me as a part of the family and this leads to an inner turmoil in my feelings. I am so happy that there is a light at the end of the tunnel but at the same time I am sad for her mother and for her family. You see when she gets here she will not be allowed to leave without special permission. This means that if we want to visit what has now become our family we have to go through red tape just to do it. We are planning a trip to see our family for Christmas but if we do not get the permission then she is not allowed to leave the country. All of this leads to it being one of the happiest and saddest days of my life. Her mother is one of the most wonderful people I know and has done a lot for us. She has been the closest thing to a mother I have had since my own mother passed away this makes it really hard for me because other than Tamuna her mom is going to be the one that is affected most by this news. There are many other people that I have come to care about that this is going to affect that I cannot help be saddened and overjoyed by it. The only solace I can find in the sadder aspects of it are that no matter what I will spend my entire life not only trying to make her happy but also to make the family I have wandered into happy as well.

How Love Changes Your Life

What to say, the love I have for Tamuna has completely changed my life. In waiting for her to be allowed to come here I have gone through an altering of what I need to do to exist in this world. I had been working in the same place for four years. That is no more my career had hit a pinnacle and the time had come to make a change. I wanted more for her and decided to move forward and now I am starting a new position in a week. We love each other dearly and everyday she pushes me to better myself. It is amazing that you can find one person in life that gives you reasons to excel and to succeed even beyond all of your own aspirations. It is easy for me to feel this way because she is a force that I love and respect dearly. She drives me forward and I drive her forward, that is the harmony we have. We will carry each other through anything and weather any storm that comes. That by its very nature is one of the most beautiful things in our love and is also one of the things that completely changed my life.

The Wait Continues

As it stands I have filed for Tamuna to come to the US to marry me. This has been a very difficult process and now we have hit a point where it is just a waiting game. Our application has been approved by US Citizen and Immigration Services and by the Dept of Homeland Security. As I write this it should actually be on its way to the US Embassy in Tbilisi. This is the tricky part as most applications run into problems on the consulate level. I do not believe we will have any issues because I make enough money to support her which is one of the requirements. Also we are truly in love and have a lot of evidence to support that.

I guess my fears are that I have my future in the hands of complete strangers. You see these people are going to determine the direction that my future takes. If they reject our petition I will have to move over to Georgia to live with her and then my children are going to suffer not seeing their father very often. This pains me because I see them quite often now and will also mean that Kyle will not see his Moona. That is going to be a crushing blow to my son because he really adores her. Constantly he is asking me when she is going to be coming to visit him. I wish this was a simple process but needless to say it isn't and we are not the only ones suffering my children are also feeling the brunt of this process. The worst part about that is that they are both young and are not able to conceive of why this is difficult. To them it should be as simple as her flying her and staying with us.

My Wife And The Boat That will Bring Her Here

I can now call the woman I love my wife. Though in name only since it isn't officially legal. To us that doesn't matter though. My visit with her in February was both heartwarming and heartbreaking. You see now we need to start the process of of applying for a visa for her. Once this process starts though it is highly unlikely they will allow her to come over and visit me. I can be strong for this but as difficult on us, it is worse for my little son who loves her to death. Just tonight he was telling her that she should come and visit us tonight. He doesn't understand the difficulties involved in this process and when I tried to explain them to him it turned into a 15 minute session of my sons imagination going wild. Needless to say his solution to the immigration visa sounded wonderful albeit not very realistic. He said he would send one of his toy boats over for her so she could cross the ocean with it. When I told him she was to big for one of his toy boats he came up with a story about his real boat that would travel over the ocean and then drive over mountains so she could ride it back. Believe me I would recite the whole story but it gets even more complicated than I can place into words. I wish this process wasn't so difficult. I just don't understand how it can take the length of time that I have been told it takes. I suppose so many people want to marry to come here but the truth is they usually don't find the solutions that thought they would by doing so. This leaves the ones that are truly in love in the wake and not only do we suffer but the collateral damage can exist also. So until this process is finished I must suffer not only the separation from my love, Tamuna, but must also suffer the sadness of her and my children for the separation they feel. My only comfort is that the the love I feel for them will carry me through any hardship. I yearn for the day when I can have my wife and my children together when that happens my life will again seem complete.

Strength in Love and Romance

Today Tamuna and I had a conversation that made me realise an odd thing about guys. Most guys would perceive this site as a sign of weakness. After all what kind of man talks about actually being in love and lets the whole world know about it. Most men would even have a good laugh at this site. Frankly I wouldn't care one bit. I have always been my own man and walked to the beat of my own drum, why stop now.

You see I don't see this site as a sign of weakness. I made a comment to her that in my love for her I have found more strength than you can imagine. I was telling her that I would risk everything to make her happy including my life. If anybody ever tried to hurt her I would literally tear them apart with my bare hands. Needless to say that really isn't a joke I never would let anybody hurt her. You see I don't think that having feelings for a woman makes you weak. If anything, loving somebody so much that you would fight the world for them gives you the strength to take on anything.

Love is Always Worth It

I must say that love really is always worth it. Tamuna and I had a fight yesterday and believe me there is nothing wrong with that. When you have a fight it is a good sign of just how much you love each other. During our fight never once did I lose site of the fact that she means the world to me. Quite the contrary when we were arguing, even though we were both upset and hurt, I knew that I loved her and that I wanted to spend my life with her. Just knowing that made is so much easier to see it not only from my point of view but hers. Needless to say, I must admit that this time around I was mostly to blame for the whole ordeal. Some people say that it is a matter of swallowing your pride to apologize when you are wrong or right. I beg to differ, when I know I am wrong it is a matter of pride to apologize. Rarely is it a matter of black and white, relationships always fall into the shades of grey. So it never hurts to apologize.

Having an argument is natural during a relationship. The key to having a healthy argument is realising that you truly love one another and communicating your feelings and listening to hers.

A Long and Painful Wait

We have been doing research into immigration so we can be together. After we are wed it seems we are going to have a very long wait until we can be together. This is really going to be painful for us. My love and I want to be together right now if we had a choice we would already be together. I only wish there was a way it could happen quickly but it seems that the laws have become so strict and so many people have tried to cheat the system, that now it is the ones that are really in love that have to suffer for it. The only thing that keeps me going is that she is worth every minute of this and I would not give her up even if I had to take on the world. So if anybody reads this post that is going through the same type of problem you truly have my sympathy. Love should never have to feel the burden of bureaucracy.

A Quote That Describes Our Love

Comte DeBussy-Rabutin
"Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it enkindles the great.”

With all of my heart I am glad that our love is great. Every day that we are apart it surprises me that I can love her that much more. Never a day goes by that I regret falling in love with her because we are apart. My only desire is that we will finally have the chance to be together always.

Sweet Everythings

I find it odd that people call the sweet things said to the ones they love "Sweet Nothings". It is in my opinion that if we put more emphasis on them being "Sweet Everythings" romance may have a chance to flourish. I tell Tamuna little love quotes and say sweet things to her all of the time. In my mind they are sweet things that mean everything to me. It truly warms my heart knowing that when I tell her those things they mean everything to her also. So I resolve myself to calling the sweet things I say to my angelozi "Sweet Everythings".

Thinking of Her

Tonight I find myself thinking of her. Have you ever loved somebody so much that you find them constantly on your mind. I wish we were together right now but I still have to wait until the end of the month to see her. What is worse is that I haven't seen her since September. We both hope things will get easier for us soon but sometimes the best things in life are the things that are the hardest. Though we will be together in the future it is still little comfort now. I even miss her telling me not to leave my clothes on the floor when changing out of them. A habit which I still have by the way. When we are together that is one she will have to keep telling me for awhile and I look forward to it.

A New Way to Learn

Today I was talking to Tamuna over IM when it hit me I am trying to learn to speak Georgian. To learn I told her that when she writes something to me she should write it in Georgian first. Then write it in English. I will then respond to her in Georgian if I can. As I see it this should make learning how to speak Georgian a little easier. Of course it is funny I will learn to read and write it first. I told her that when we are on the phone together she should do the same as a way for me to learn pronunciation. I have always had problems learning a new language and hope this method works.

Getting Prepared for Our Wedding

Lately I have been working extra hours to cover things so I can travel to Georgia in February for our wedding. It amazes me just how much I am looking forward to the day when we will finally be married. It has been consuming all of my time. I have never wanted something so much in my whole life and now that it is almost here I am all nerves and just want it to go perfect and smoothly.